Yeah.

"How much more can I hate without burning up?"


So I kinda failed at the Picture Project. Ahhh well, I knew it wasn't going to last long anyway. I'm really pissed. Pissed doesn't seem like a good enough word to describe the rage I am in right now. I'm not gonna write what's actually going on because anyone can see this, and what is going on is personal. Yesterday was a really good day, especially with drummajor practice, I be rockin it. Then, after Collage went awesome, people started pissing me off and before I knew it I was bawling my eyes out on the way home, yelling at everyone, all because of one insecure son of a bitch. Thanks, asshole.


Today started off good until about 30 minutes ago. I can't stand hypocrites, I just. Can't. Stand. Them. Seriously, quite bitching at everyone just to make them feel as miserable as you do everyday of your sorry life.


I am finally understanding why my brother felt the way he did when he was my age. Except he must have felt 20x madder. I can't wait to get out of here and never look back, ever.


In the mean time I will study my ass off all of this week and next weekend for AP exams and school, and work my ass off to get drummajor, and try to get a job, and all that jazz. Jazz is too happy of a word for my mood, just saying.


On a happier note, (which I still am not happy) I am going to my best friends' in a little bit, and forget about all of this for a little while.

And I'm Like "YES!"

Today was such a freaking great day. So many things happened that made it wonderful:) I'm not gonna mention anything about anything with guys because I don't want to get excited over stuff that isn't actually there, *yet* TEEHEE!!!! It's all hush hush;) Good conversations with Danielle today:) And Megan has C lunch for the rest of the freaking school year, awe hell yeah! Tomorrow is my speech for English, and the first day of Drum major meetings...so I will be practicing for that later tonight. #getpsychedyo. Just saying I love the song "Judas" by Lady Gaga. 

Day 7: 

Sundays

Pretty much Sundays are my least favorite day of the week. I just don't like getting up to go to church cause when I go to church I don't get completely ready I just kinda throw on some mascara and coverup and flip my hair around and then leave. Sooo then I don't got my good vibes going in church. And usually Sundays are my homework days where I just do homework ALL DAY....which sucks. Consequently, I just look BLAH on Sundays...so enjoy! Days like these are really gonna make me wish I wasn't doing The Picture Project. BUT whatevs yo....


Day 6: 

OMFG EWWWWWWWWWW. 

Blown. Away.

I just got back from Megan's dance recital and it was AMAZING!!!!!!!!! I was completely awed by PADT's dancers and their talent. I seriously did not want that show to end.  Great job kids! 

Day 5: 

I need to color code my closet again. 

Complete 180:D

Today was a completely excellent day:) Everything went well...except my audition and ap bio test which I crapped all over both. BUT I DON'T CARE!!! Cause today was freaking fun:) and I just went to Ulta and got a TON of new stuff, including a new straightener that came with a lil mini one thats SOOO CUTE:) ahhhhh. And the lockin is later tonight which is gonna be a freakin blast:) 


Day 4: 

Heeeeey homie!!

Don't hate meh cause I'm beautiful...

That's Better

Ahhhh. Life is so much better. Went to church to go to Reconciliation before Easter, and it really helped get my mind off of today. The priest told me to try to be nicer to people since Holy Week is coming up; which I really should be nicer. Nice Sarah.... coming soon! Probably. 

Feeling Blank

Normally, I have really good days. Today, was not one of those days. It's days like these that piss me off so fucking much. This happens about once every 2 or 3 weeks where I'm just fine with feeling sorry for myself and being miserable. I'm so sick of the same thing day after day, wake up, get ready, go to school, put on the happy face, be full of energy, come home, and not know what to do. I need to get out of this house, this school, this town, cause the constant routine is killing me. Or maybe I just need new friends, or a boyfriend, I'm not sure right now, but somethings gotta change. 


Tomorrow is the band lock-in which hopefully will be fun, but I'm not actually too tight with anyone in band anymore, which sucks big time. Sooooo I'm just gonna go and if its not fun then I will just come home and do....something. And tomorrow after school my Mom is taking my evil sister (Kim) and I to Ulta for makeup, which should cheer me up, a little retail therapy is what a girl like me needs. Maybe thats part of the problem, not seeing my mom ever because she is always working. UGH. And I have an audition tomorrow, and a spanish quiz. I've got this under control. Phew, venting. 


THIS mess is what happens when I skip a day of working out. Now I'm gonna get shit cleaned up, do some laundry, get dinner ready, do studying for tomorrow, practice, workout. Under. Control. 


Day 3: